Hi Friends! I’m excited to be a Happiness Crusader and joining over 100 women in spreading the message of #ChoosingHappiness to women around the world. In today’s post I share how I chose happiness in the midst of life’s messiness by answering a few questions from my inspiring friend best-selling Publisher Linda Joy. Today is the official release of her new book Inspiration for a Woman’s Soul: Choosing Happiness featuring the soul-inspiring stories of 27 amazing women who share their intimate stories of transformation. Choosing Happiness also includes Reflection Questions after each story which will empower you to integrate the vital lessons of each woman’s journey into your own life.
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Its Good To be HAPPI
I found that the very need to SEARCH for my own happiness was awe inspiring. why do I have to search for something I should already have? What is this journey without joy? 2005, My health was declining, my marriage was a failure, my self esteem was gone, my hopes were squashed. My love for “self” was non existent and all could do was to sit and sulk. I was 40 lbs over weight and extremely unhappy. I lived in a war zone and all I wanted to do was raise my bonus daughter and to move out. I knew that my goals and hopes would never manifest in this mental state of FOG. I had to make changes so I began to write. I wrote about my pains, sorrows, wants, needs and desires. I wrote about my perfect mate, my perfect body, my perfect soul and then wrote about all the scars, flaws, surgeries, and self perpetuated moments that kept me down. Then I found out I was (finally) viably pregnant and the world turned upside down.
I was offered an opportunity to step up and be a better version of me. I was now being held to the task of change. I continued to write but this time I also read what I wrote and started to realize that I am very capable of being very hard on myself. I am my own stumbling block and it was clear to me that this needed to END and I had two choices:
2. To continue to feel dead.
I choose Happiness even if that meant I had to fake it to make I was hell bent on living my life to the fullest and no longer wallowing in the Emotional Quagmire (c) that I have spent years hiding in. I had to pull up my big girl panties and get OVER it. I began to meditate, journal and Treasure Map my future. Our future. I began to find hope and optimism and I realized how little most of my problems were. I realized that I have power, a voice and strength beyond measure and needed to get real with my self and find my purpose.
So I wrote love notes to myself. Letters of gratitude. I would talk to myself in the mirror and I found like minded HAPPI people to associate with. I let go of those who enveloped themselves in drama and found healers, wisdom keepers, light workers, people who loved life and people who could live beyond materialistic desires. I surrounded myself with beauty and from that I emerged Beautiful again.
My cathartic moment was realizing I was to be a mother and my responsibility to her was to be the best version of me.